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QOTW:
"Obsession is a young man's game."
-old guy in The Prestige

other thoughts:
this guy allen, a pastor, is pretty awesome. he speaks at this worship thing i go to on saturdays and never fail he brings to each talk a severe passion for god. it's so awesome. his messages are not very typical and last week he mentioned that his wife pointed out to him that they are in fact not even always that practical. there is something about this whole worship thing that is fairly impractical and i think there may be something to that. i know it's been said before that we are not necessarily supposed to get anything from a worship service, in fact the name would suggest that we are there not for ourselves but to worship our creator. i find though that most pastors give us something to work on, get better at, a way to improve our christian life, love better, pray better, not sin better, but save till the end a few brief words directed at the love of christ which is the solution to whatever problem or task they have spoken to. why not skip all the other stuff and go straight to love. if its the solution for all of the other stuff then why not just always talk about it. talk about experiencing it and stuff so that when we do experience it we wont wonder what it is. this is sort of what allen does. he talks about gods love for us. and he speaks from his experience. pulling out of his own life experiences of gods faithful love. there is something in that as well. the more a pastor teaches about scripture the more it becomes a classroom. the more he makes it a part of his life the more life changing and overwhelming the gospel becomes. as i see it now a worship service ought to flow from worship to worship to worship in different forms. singing or listening, proclaiming the love of god for us and reminding us why we have gathered in his presence, basking in his love and he in return basking in our love for him. for though we come to worship it is not a thing that starts with us. we rarely come already overwhelmed with him to the point of worship, no he is there loving us already but we have forgetten that he is. in remembering it once again we then can begin to worship.

thats what we have been thinking about for a few weeks. this god that we come to loves us so much. he loves us always and this will not change ever for anything. no matter what day it is, no matter our attitude, god is not swayed. his love for us is not affected by us. it is just love. he desires to pour it out upon us and for us to live intoxicated by it. there is something so amazing about the times when we dont need practicality in our life, in our church. worship, or love for that matter, is best when there is no regard for common sense. mary pouring a jar of perfume on jesus' feet that cost way to much to waste. god and his bride casting aside all that anyone else would find of value to be together, to bring a smile to the face of the other. that is love and what happens in real worship.

Posted in: on Monday, February 26, 2007 at at 6:51 PM 0 comments  

i have recently become re-obsessed with a song from the first ten shekel shirt cd. unashamed love. lyrically it's r.m.f.o.

"You're calling me to lay aside the worries of my day, to quiet down my busy mind and find a hiding place..."

fairly perfect start to a worship song...and probably the most accurate description of what god's doing to me at the moment. as i am obsessed with it i've been playing it a lot on the guitar and james agreed to accompany me tonight on the djembe. post-song we decided to have a worship song per night. well i wanted to and he has agreed to apease me. i'm excited about it.

Posted in: on Thursday, February 15, 2007 at at 11:01 PM 1 comments  

a couple of thoughts:

a. i recently remembered my love for costa rican culture and the fact that i somehow recieved the attitude and lifestyle of that society though i was born and raised in NC. need proof? here's a brief passage from wikipedia that should be convincing enough.

"Ticos are normally very friendly, helpful, laid-back, unhurried, educated, hygienic, non-violent and environmentally aware people. They worry little about deadlines and arrive late to many appointments. For Ticos, spending quality time with family and friends is paramount and most people prefer jobs that allow them free time."

need more? here, read on.

b. i've really been craving community. in the church kind of sense. i have had very little in the way of church, corporate worship, and/or discussion of god and that sort of stuff recently given that i work on sunday most of the time and that my schedule in general is fairly chaotic. so, first off, i decided to listen to some charlie hall this morning on the way to work. marvelous light is one of my favorite songs. this was the first time i'd listened to it in like half a year probably and so i had it stuck in my head and really wanted to pull out the guitar when i got home and play it. well, before i could i actually went to a worship sort of service called verge over at reynolda pres that they have on saturday nights. i walk in and what do you think was the first song gene had picked out for the evening? oh yeah, marvelous light. i love the "coincidence" of it. god is good.
god then proceded to provide me with the worship that i had so longed for. it was great. singing with a group of people to our god. and it was real and genuine. we all belted it out so long and hard that by the last song we had all nearly lost our voices and could only weakly offer up the last few lines with cracking straining voices. i loved it. god is good.

Posted in: on Sunday, February 11, 2007 at at 12:59 AM 0 comments  

A- i learned to do a hand roll at my kayak roll class sunday. basically that means i can roll my kayak without using my paddle and i'm really excited about that.

B- i took this week off from my fiji water. instead of fiji i picked up a case of aquafina at the grocery on monday. why? just to remind my self why i drink fiji. it's so much better than everything else.

Posted in: on Monday, February 05, 2007 at at 2:27 AM 0 comments