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for those who dont know, the blue screen of death refers to the blue screen your computer makes when its about to die. it may be four or five blue screens after this restart, but its coming so get ready. my computer died nearly two months ago. two short weeks later my ipod died. neither has come back to life yet. a week ago my cd player died and i realized my camera's battery was in fayetteville and i wouldnt get it back till this weekend. i have been struck with an electronic plague but i am actually surviving. it is much less painful then when i returned from guatemala last year with montezuma's revenge and lived on the couch for three days. after my fever broke my temperature was 104. (quick shout out to quail, my one friend who actually took care of me durring that quagmire of misery.) anyway, electronic failure is not as painful as montezuma. i dont get to watch dvd's to put me to sleep. i dont get to have background music everywhere i go. i dont get to snap pictures of every random moment. i sometimes have to listen to the radio in the car or nothing at all. it hasnt caused any rashes or painful welts. i'm surprised. i, like most amreicans i know under the age of thirty, would have claimed that these were actually parts of my body. that their removal could have been likened to an amputation. false. fortunately, it wasnt like amputation. it was like pulling out earplugs. everything in the actual world seemed to come in a little more clearly. no static to people talking to me. nothing to drown out the perfect blue sky. no picture to steal the soul of my gelato. just life before the invention of whatever all this stuff is. i enjoy it. most of the time. i still miss the stuff. but i think its good to remember the quiet of things when it is simple. to remember that none of the comercials are telling the truth. we dont really need to buy any of it. god gives us what we need. it doesnt matter what "they" say. we have all we need. we are enough just as we are. you are amazing without the stuff. life in the stillness is good. we're just not used to it. try it. just stop. put down your stuff. just be. love your family, love your friends, love your neighbor, love the nature god has given us, love silence, love honesty, love courage, love truth, love challenges, love art, love simplicity, love not having all the answers, love empty hands, love god, love creation and love creating, love cool mornings, love warm evenings, love rain in the summer when it comes down so hard you can swim in the little streams on the side of streets in your neighborhood, or when the hills turn into mudslides, love being barefoot in a field with a blanket and a guitar and a book and a frisbee and a friend or two and knowing that any of these options is a good option and that the field will still be there tomorrow and that you can come back with the book and the crazy creek if you choose the frisbee, love sneezing, love learning, love that you have people willing to teach you, love asking questions, love laughing at yourself, love storms, love the smell before the rain, love the smell of fires, love apple juice, love life, love life.

Posted in: on Saturday, May 13, 2006 at at 1:44 AM