KGBlog

so here i am on a late night ramble. it seems as if it's been quite a while since i last wrote anything that had any real significance to it. lots of humorous stories but nothing really about life or me or anyone else. i dont know what it is i want to talk about here but i feel the need to say something. i guess i'll just sum up my life right now. i work. all the time. its the busy season at the portrait studio. families, kids, everyone coming in for their christmas photos. really good for us since we just opened but it means we dont stop working. through december we're in 6 days a week from 830 till...well until the last appointment finishes which is usually 830ish as well give or take a half hour or so. last week i almost got to 60 hours. its crazy. and we all think so but if we can make it through then we will have rest in jan. thru till easter and then another couple of crazy weeks and then easy sailing till next christmas. but in the meantime there we are day in day out shooting pic after pic and doin our thing. so that is my life in a nutshell. do i like it? i guess so. pictures are fun and i really do love portraits. but i wont be able to go to church for a really freaking long time. and i miss it. last year working at 1st pres i realized that the thing i loved about the place the most was the community/family feel of it. and now i dont get to be involved at all. it sucks. i just got back from hanging out with a few friends. we had the guitars out and were singing worship songs. and it was the first time i had in like a month. and i miss it. music is huge for me and worshiping in community is something that connects me with god in a special way. i havent experienced it in so long that i wonder what effect it's really having on me. i mean i think i'm still nice and try to be there as much as i can for friends, which is all well and good but what about god? yeah of course i can find him in the mundane of life...he is there just as much as he is always there anywhere, but there is something so different about this life i lead right now. work, eat, sleep, repeat. that's about the same. but there is something so awesome about going to work when you know that much of your day will be spent talking about god and his work here. last years internship was so amazing for that reason. i find myself now with days going completely by without having one single discussion about god, without one hymn being sung, without the shared understanding that we are all striving to follow his purpose for our lives. its not that he is not there. it's just so much easier to remember his presence when one person or other is continually pointing him out for us all to see. i guess all that is to say that i miss living a life so continuously focused on pointing others to god because it so much of the time kept me focused on him as well.

Posted in: on Saturday, November 25, 2006 at at 2:23 AM