KGBlog

have you ever been overwhelmed with life? so much so that you just cant handle it anymore? not in the "i'm going to end it" sense but in the "i cant wait to be Home" sense. one of my friends approached me with this feeling sometime last year saying that when she was in the world it made her want to cry and that she couldn't wait to be Home. i had never been to that point until sometime this year but i got there again last night. fortunately due to the wonders of IM i was able to talk with her and reminisce on the old conversation.

here's the feeling in a nutshell if it seems a little fuzzy...
we were so overwhelmed by how much we dont get it. we humans are selfish, self-centered, failing creatures...we dont know how to love or live or do much of anything right. sometimes you find yourself in a place that makes you acutely aware of this fact. maybe you are observing people pursuing all the wrong things and looking right past the hurt or struggles of those around them because they've convinced themselves its just not their problem...maybe its something else. and you begin to wonder why you even have hope of us ever getting it right. we always mess it up. we always get it wrong. hope starts to drain and then the picture hits you. you remember that at some point we will. there is a hope. it may not be in this life but its there. there is a place where we will all love each other. we will know how to and we will...and we will do it well. its Home. it will be amazing...i want to be there. i want to see it and i cant quite imagine it but i love it and i long for it. i almost miss it even though i dont think i've ever been.

Posted in: on Saturday, April 01, 2006 at at 10:21 AM